February 2012
It’s so hard coming to school everyday, trying to avoid seeing you because I know all the memories of our friendship will run through my head. It’s not the easiest thing having to let go of a friendship that was once so special to you. I never had feelings for you or anything, it’s just that it’s not often that you can have a bond like that with someone. Everyone knew how...
I’ve had so many people ask me if I’m from Carson….
No. I am not.
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I’m looking forward to another week of hell. I have this whole week to get my grades up so that I won’t be stressing too much about my mid-terms. Laziness always gets the best of me and I end up never doing my work. I just have to remind myself that I know I’m better than this, and that I’m capable of getting straight A’s, but that this laziness isn’t helping me...
Pretty disappointed in myself since I’m going to bed now and I didn’t do any of my homework. I pretty much just sat in my room when I got home and just stayed on the laptop. Oh well.. tomorrow is Friday and I’m praying for a good day. Night!
I’ve been on such a spiritual high lately. It’s such an amazing feeling and I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy. Despite all the chaos, I’m happy. I’m stronger than the past 5 months. That is all that matters, and that is all that will ever matter. As long as I continue to share with God, and as long as I live up to Him, I know everything will be okay.
With all that has been happening in my life lately, I’m learning to adjust and accept all the bad things that happen. I guess it’s because I’ve grown used to all of it happening so often that, it’s become somewhat of a routine. As horrible as that may sound, in the end I know that everything will be okay. God has brought me upon challenges that He knows I can overcome. I...
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Things are slowly beginning to balance out. With school, social life, family, and personal. Although, I can’t get too happy about this because I know I need to work harder in order to find myself again. To find my inner strength that’s been hidden beneath all of this sadness and anger that has built up in the past 5 months.
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Sit your WHORE ass down!
Hoochiemama.
Motivation.
Ever since yesterday, I’ve felt so lifted by God. By just watching 5-10 minutes of Isaiah’s video, I’ve come to realize so many things that I had once questioned for so many years. My mood has completely changed within just one day. I feel so motivated, and I keep reminding myself that although I just want things to go my way, God won’t bring me to situations to my liking....
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Faith.
I seriously can’t thank Andre enough for inviting me to The Awakening tomorrow. Although there is a possibility we might not attend, by just sharing my thoughts on “religion” and sharing my thoughts on as to why I’ve been questioning my faith, he has opened my eyes. He shared a video with me. “The Awakening,” as they call it. A guy named Isaiah Saldivar holds...
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Ash Wednesday.
There was a big event today involving our school, since the Boy’s Varsity basketball team had made it to the play-offs, there was an opportunity for 50 students to ride the rooter bus all the way to Sac as a whole (Spartan Nation.) On a side note, it is also Ash Wednesday. People considered skipping school in the morning to attend church just to receive the ashes. In my opinion, I felt that...
I have no strength or motivation. I need God.
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Faith.
To be completely honest, for the longest time now, I have been questioning my faith. Within Christian churches, I feel more at home, I feel more good vibes. Whereas, in Catholic, it’s honestly really boring. They way I feel during worship is a feeling I only encounter during some YFC events. It’s an amazing feeling being surrounded by others who also share the same passion for the...
I want some fucking sushi, that’s what I fucking want.
Losing someone important to you..
traceeynguyen:
It hurts. Right down to your stomach. That uncomfortable feeling, when you know you’re slowly drifting away from them. You’ll miss them, hopefully they think about you like you always thought about them. Till you’re just a faded memory. Then you suddenly disappear out of their lives. It hurts.
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I haven’t cried this hard in awhile. Why tonight? Just when I thought everything was gonna be okay..
I’m such a fuck up. Everything I do ends up being the wrong thing. When can I just do something right for once? I’ve lost yet another best friend, because I was so careless. Fuck everything right now.
And with that being said, it’s time for me to clean my room and prepare my school stuff for tomorrow. I’m in such a good mood knowing I’ve gotten at least some of my homework done. I can now go to bed feeling relieved.
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I feel really accomplished for actually having done my homework. I did all that I understood, and that should be enough considering I didn’t do homework at all the past couple of days. I’m falling behind in classes because I’m so lazy, which I should really change. Today during 2nd period, we got the papers in which we get to choose our classes next year, along with our...
I need motivation. I’m slowly starting to give up on everything. My grades are dropping, I’m breaking out because of the stress, I’m gaining weight because I go to food for comfort, and I’m slowly drifting away from my friends and family. Nothing seems right anymore, so I’ve just stopped trying as much as I used to. I just feel so alone in this hell hole.
Well, let’s just say that it has gotten to the point where I’ve become careless when you tell me you can’t visit. And honestly, I continuously ask myself why I stay.
OH! And it’s alright, we don’t have to webcam tonight. It’s not like you fucking promised me or anything. I am totally okay.
Oh, no it’s cool, I don’t mind. I don’t mind calling you to cheer you up when I know I have a shit load of homework to do. It’s alright, I don’t care if you just suddenly decide to leave me to go talk to a friend. Oh and one last thing, I don’t mind that you always tell me I always come first, when clearly, I don’t. Why is it that I can ignore my...